Thursday, July 05, 2007
Things have taken a silly twist...
Some things, I can never comprehand... Never would I expect things like these to ever happen, if not for my friends, who usually tell me a thing or two... Am I not observant enough? Or am I not even able to observe?
So happy Hui Xian , Serene and Bee Sim were back in school today, and Eileen too... Probably the first time I saw them since the first meeting... We've missed them... They were just in the right place at the right time I guess... Good to get them updated on everything... I had dinner with some of my Stardust babies today... It was fun to have them all together again... Hopefully the turn out would be more the next time...
GL interviews have been going on for 3 days, and the final day is tomorrow... I've met quite a few interesting personalities during this period of time... Really colourful... I had to really put things harsh to some of my fellow GLs during the interview today... The response from them was really scary, though I'd expect it... I'm afraid relationships between me and my friends would turn sour... I've got not much left... Its not ideal to let more slip off...
What's sillier, is while I want to get everyone into being one, big happy family, I'm being left out in some place else... Crazy how something like this can happen... Maybe I'm just not fit to be in that world... Why should there be outcasts? Am I supposed to be one just so that I can feel how it is like for others? I've experienced enough of that... It hurts even for a short period of time...
What's worst, is that I'm afraid I'm gonna lose something, when things have not even advanced... A treasure like this is hard to find, considering I just lost something similar... I want to keep this one, but I'm afraid of the same outcome, or maybe worst... I'm not in control of anything, and any external factors can just sway things away of my direction... I don't feel anything when I'm out of home, but once I have the luxury of thinking of it in a cosy warm place, wild thoughts just keep surfacing...
Some things, I can never comprehand... Never would I expect things like these to ever happen, if not for my friends, who usually tell me a thing or two... Am I not observant enough? Or am I not even able to observe?
So happy Hui Xian , Serene and Bee Sim were back in school today, and Eileen too... Probably the first time I saw them since the first meeting... We've missed them... They were just in the right place at the right time I guess... Good to get them updated on everything... I had dinner with some of my Stardust babies today... It was fun to have them all together again... Hopefully the turn out would be more the next time...
GL interviews have been going on for 3 days, and the final day is tomorrow... I've met quite a few interesting personalities during this period of time... Really colourful... I had to really put things harsh to some of my fellow GLs during the interview today... The response from them was really scary, though I'd expect it... I'm afraid relationships between me and my friends would turn sour... I've got not much left... Its not ideal to let more slip off...
What's sillier, is while I want to get everyone into being one, big happy family, I'm being left out in some place else... Crazy how something like this can happen... Maybe I'm just not fit to be in that world... Why should there be outcasts? Am I supposed to be one just so that I can feel how it is like for others? I've experienced enough of that... It hurts even for a short period of time...
What's worst, is that I'm afraid I'm gonna lose something, when things have not even advanced... A treasure like this is hard to find, considering I just lost something similar... I want to keep this one, but I'm afraid of the same outcome, or maybe worst... I'm not in control of anything, and any external factors can just sway things away of my direction... I don't feel anything when I'm out of home, but once I have the luxury of thinking of it in a cosy warm place, wild thoughts just keep surfacing...