Saturday, July 21, 2007
An interesting 5 days have passed... Some matters in my head resolved, doubts answered, and I've got nothing to say but submit fully, on my knees with hands raised... Fate, you win...
What seems now that Steph is really ok with everything, though its kinda late for me to realise it now, I'm happy that nothing's changed, and we can still joke around well... Huge sigh of a relief there...
My CCT didn't look as bad as I expected... I decided to go for the earlier session and give up some revision time... At least I left for the tournament without a heavy mind...
There were supposed to be 3 presentations this week... So far, I've only cleared one, another which is done, and the last, well, converting my report into slides... Ok, simple enough, but with 2 tutorials to do, a new game which I have to play catch up to my friends because I'm still really noob at it, and a weekend to catch up on rest, it looks kinda tight on time now...
I went to both matches on Monday and today... I thought it was really unecessary to field a full line-up against ITE, though it wast thought to be a tough match... We still handed out a 5-0 win, with 2 comfortable 9-0 wins... I really thought I could make my POL-ITE debut there, but guess not...
RP must really be feeling happy now, having won us both in men's and lady's tournament 3-2... Really good effort to all players today... This was the first time I felt the tension of the tournament... The bigger problem now, is the next match... I won't say anymore, just in case team secret gets out...
I had a talk with Robin when he gave me a lift home... I've found the missing puzzle to my biggest doubt; why was I not able to play again this year... Simple: I'm not consistent in producing wonderful shots, and that's why Stan doesn't want to field me in the line-up... Ok, I'm a lousy player, not experienced enough for matches, obviously don't make the cut, and don't belong in the team... Haiz... Well, the whole lousy package... I admit now: I SUCK AT TENNIS!!!
Still, something else remains... And I'd really like an answer... Maybe I'm too optimistic, or I was probably aiming too high in the first place... Think I should just give up on the prospect of any hopes before I'm thrown into sadness again...
What seems now that Steph is really ok with everything, though its kinda late for me to realise it now, I'm happy that nothing's changed, and we can still joke around well... Huge sigh of a relief there...
My CCT didn't look as bad as I expected... I decided to go for the earlier session and give up some revision time... At least I left for the tournament without a heavy mind...
There were supposed to be 3 presentations this week... So far, I've only cleared one, another which is done, and the last, well, converting my report into slides... Ok, simple enough, but with 2 tutorials to do, a new game which I have to play catch up to my friends because I'm still really noob at it, and a weekend to catch up on rest, it looks kinda tight on time now...
I went to both matches on Monday and today... I thought it was really unecessary to field a full line-up against ITE, though it wast thought to be a tough match... We still handed out a 5-0 win, with 2 comfortable 9-0 wins... I really thought I could make my POL-ITE debut there, but guess not...
RP must really be feeling happy now, having won us both in men's and lady's tournament 3-2... Really good effort to all players today... This was the first time I felt the tension of the tournament... The bigger problem now, is the next match... I won't say anymore, just in case team secret gets out...
I had a talk with Robin when he gave me a lift home... I've found the missing puzzle to my biggest doubt; why was I not able to play again this year... Simple: I'm not consistent in producing wonderful shots, and that's why Stan doesn't want to field me in the line-up... Ok, I'm a lousy player, not experienced enough for matches, obviously don't make the cut, and don't belong in the team... Haiz... Well, the whole lousy package... I admit now: I SUCK AT TENNIS!!!
Still, something else remains... And I'd really like an answer... Maybe I'm too optimistic, or I was probably aiming too high in the first place... Think I should just give up on the prospect of any hopes before I'm thrown into sadness again...