Sunday, March 25, 2007
My mind is bogged.. Real bad.. I don't even have peace when i rest or play.. Might as well stay up and make use of the whole 24 hrs..
Mum's going crazy about the whole MLM thing.. She keeps telling me to fight for this and that, not considering I'm really busy this time period.. She pulled me to the training today, and after that keep asking me where and what I'm going to do next.. I'M BURSTING FOR GOD'S SAKE! I DON'T HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD NOW!!! I even got into a quarel over small things with her today.. Really dumb.. I hate it when she always stands there a gives that stupid stare and waits till I give in to her.. I'm motivated enough to do it already! And I will fight for whatever there is! The time's just not right! WHAT MORE DOES SHE WANT?!
I'm really pissed with some ppl over this weekend.. While I'm trying to make things work out, they complain about things being complicated, how things should be, and how the grass is better on the other side.. Damn, if you don't like the way its done, leave! I still had to make ammendments here and there so they'd be at least a little happier..
Actually, the main thing I've been this grouchy these few days is because of her.. Things just took a great fall last night.. I tried again.. And failed miserably.. But i didn't want to end like that again.. She ran away, thinking everything will be alright.. I didn't have my chance to talk to her.. I doubt I'll ever have again.. I think I'm the real loser now.. She came back for what she wanted.. But I've lost everything and submitted completely to her.. Another night of tears no doubt..
I've lost it.. I really don't wanna entertain complications that much now.. I'm afraid I'll offend people here and there.. I need to find a place to scream.. Cuz' I just wanna curse and swear really badly without people hearing me.. I watched Final Destination 2 on tv last night.. I thought the directors were really creative.. People dying like that.. Mebbe I should just get into something like that.. And try to see how many times I can cheat death.. Probably be able to spice my life up again..
Mum's going crazy about the whole MLM thing.. She keeps telling me to fight for this and that, not considering I'm really busy this time period.. She pulled me to the training today, and after that keep asking me where and what I'm going to do next.. I'M BURSTING FOR GOD'S SAKE! I DON'T HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD NOW!!! I even got into a quarel over small things with her today.. Really dumb.. I hate it when she always stands there a gives that stupid stare and waits till I give in to her.. I'm motivated enough to do it already! And I will fight for whatever there is! The time's just not right! WHAT MORE DOES SHE WANT?!
I'm really pissed with some ppl over this weekend.. While I'm trying to make things work out, they complain about things being complicated, how things should be, and how the grass is better on the other side.. Damn, if you don't like the way its done, leave! I still had to make ammendments here and there so they'd be at least a little happier..
Actually, the main thing I've been this grouchy these few days is because of her.. Things just took a great fall last night.. I tried again.. And failed miserably.. But i didn't want to end like that again.. She ran away, thinking everything will be alright.. I didn't have my chance to talk to her.. I doubt I'll ever have again.. I think I'm the real loser now.. She came back for what she wanted.. But I've lost everything and submitted completely to her.. Another night of tears no doubt..
I've lost it.. I really don't wanna entertain complications that much now.. I'm afraid I'll offend people here and there.. I need to find a place to scream.. Cuz' I just wanna curse and swear really badly without people hearing me.. I watched Final Destination 2 on tv last night.. I thought the directors were really creative.. People dying like that.. Mebbe I should just get into something like that.. And try to see how many times I can cheat death.. Probably be able to spice my life up again..