Thursday, March 22, 2007
I can't be bothered with anything that has happened the past few days... How much fun and shit I experienced during GL trainings, how it sucks to train in a team that looks down on me, how dance practices suck when people don't bother to turn up after you took pains to choreograph the steps and use your energy to teach, how i appeared on live tv, how i got to go to watch the Dancefloor live, how bad the weather has been treating me, how I'm eagerly anticipating the release of the tournament draw, how my mum is always giving me pressure to achieve the goal she set for me...
Nothing comes down to me as hard... Not anything like her
She walked back into my life last night... And brought everything back... She just wanted to know how I was... And I was a total jerk to her last night... I had a frustrating day... Busy with stuff, and the frustration just wouldn't go away... Until she came... I'm really sorry, it had to be at the wrong time... I was harsh, really harsh on her with my words, probably affected by how things have been going by...
I woke this morning to see what she left behind for me last night after i went to bed with no regrets of my actions... Guilt just rushed in... And it brought back all my feelings for her... It's crazy, I know... I left home with a heavy heart... I hardly had a full breath both during the trip to school and home... I was just thinking of her words... Those 3 lines I read... What did she really mean and what did she want to do by saying that? I was thinking all day if I should talk to her again... I haven't gotten anything from her since I sent the sms at around 4 this afternoon... My heart's aching badly for her... How I'd miss her when we were in our really happy days... I'm playing a compiled list of sad songs over n over... I can't stop it, and I think I'll go through everything from beginning again... No doubt fatigue is the main reason my spirits have been low... I probably would have fainted if there was training today... I haven't had much rest the past few days, and my actions have been lethargic... I don't have the luxary of this kinda situation now, but nothing's changing...
Nothing comes down to me as hard... Not anything like her
She walked back into my life last night... And brought everything back... She just wanted to know how I was... And I was a total jerk to her last night... I had a frustrating day... Busy with stuff, and the frustration just wouldn't go away... Until she came... I'm really sorry, it had to be at the wrong time... I was harsh, really harsh on her with my words, probably affected by how things have been going by...
I woke this morning to see what she left behind for me last night after i went to bed with no regrets of my actions... Guilt just rushed in... And it brought back all my feelings for her... It's crazy, I know... I left home with a heavy heart... I hardly had a full breath both during the trip to school and home... I was just thinking of her words... Those 3 lines I read... What did she really mean and what did she want to do by saying that? I was thinking all day if I should talk to her again... I haven't gotten anything from her since I sent the sms at around 4 this afternoon... My heart's aching badly for her... How I'd miss her when we were in our really happy days... I'm playing a compiled list of sad songs over n over... I can't stop it, and I think I'll go through everything from beginning again... No doubt fatigue is the main reason my spirits have been low... I probably would have fainted if there was training today... I haven't had much rest the past few days, and my actions have been lethargic... I don't have the luxary of this kinda situation now, but nothing's changing...